Hi, my name is Vincent. I'm from Colorado, and I grew up with the idea that not doing anything is a waste of time, so I try to live life to the fullest. I might not get on here that much, but when I see something I like I want to share and remember it.
So I found this song last night, and it makes me think about her. It made me feel so frustrated I wanted to just run outside and scream, but at the same time I just wanted to bask in the smooth beauty of it. It’s one of the worst/best/most complicated feelings I’ve ever come across. I miss her, I miss my old self, I miss a lot.
I don’t even know what I want anymore, I’ve lost my ambition and motivation. I wish I wanted to do something but honestly my life has just become a whole bunch of nothing. I don’t know what I wan to do I’m kinda lost. I need some guidance from a source I’d be willing to listen to
I needa get myself outta this funk, I’ve been down for a while. This is my reminder to go out and have some fun. Meet some new people and make some new memories worth remembering. I’m gonna smile more, and keep my head high because I just need to feel good about myself. I don’t need approval, I just need to love myself
Lol no one ever reads these when I post them, but whatever. I just wanna take a minute to talk about the amazing culture that I have become a part of, and why it feels so important to me. So about 4 1/2 years ago when my dad was in the hospital and I was in between homes, I came across edm. At first I was a bit iffy about it, but as time went on I fell in love. I just got a feeling from this music that I couldn’t quite explain, and still can’t. As shit got harder I started getting deeper in to the scene. When my dad died I didn’t really know what to do. I felt alone, I felt a depression I never thought I would get out of. I started down a self-destructive path that got me in a few dumbass situations that still effect me today. I started listening to this music more and decided that I wanted to start going to these events, even after all the crazy shit I had heard about it. At my first event I could just feel the energy coming from everywhere, everyone was just so accepting and the music was awesome. I started to forget about my problems and starting to think about how much fun and love I felt. I realised that all these people from all different walks of life had their own problems and that my escape from drama also happened to be theirs. And for the most part everyone wants to take a break from real life and just enjoy themselves a couple nights, meet good people, and forget about their problems for a while. And of course there’s occasional drama but that’s just how everything is, nothing’s perfect. So this kinda just turned in to a rant. But what I really wanna say is thank you, to every person I’ve met at a show, to the people that host these events, to every dj who’s music has brought me to tears. I love the scene and I love everyone in it, you’ve been nothing but great to me since day one and all of you make my life worth living.
Carl R. Rogers (via jewist)